Tuesday, May 26, 2009

无奈的我

这几天老板的心情都很不好

虽然我们都努力了

生意有起有落

可是老板还是不是很满意

我们应该如何才可以满足他呢?

不是我们不要不努力

而是没人要进来买东西

这几天都是满肚子的气

不知道要如何发泄

只能憋在心里

坑都不吭声的

我到底是怎么了

是不勇敢发表意见

还是怕再中骂吗?

幸好和我一起工作的senior都会提醒我

教导我

我不知道自己还能挨多久

也不知道能撑多久

不过我答应过她

只要她还在我都不会溜

除非她不做了

我就会找别的工作

现在打算找半夜工做了

不想太过依赖家里

我要靠我自己

养活我自己

这个将会是我下半年的目标

希望会顺顺利利吧~

Sunday, May 17, 2009

從今的我要對自己說

我要脫離悲傷的世界

不要再去胡思亂想

去想一些有的沒的

因為這樣是不行的

還有很多東西等著我去探索,享受,分享

如果我再抱著頹廢的心態面對世界的話

我會更難過

我之所以會那么決定

是因為我今天的經歷終于讓我發覺原來我一路來的思想心態是錯誤的

所以我不能再錯下去

我要改造我自己

我要變得快樂

現在我需要做的就是讓自己快樂起來

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Maybe...‏

Maybe. . we were supposed to meet the
wrong people before meeting the right
one so that, when we finally meet the
right person, we will know how to be
grateful for that gift.


Maybe
. . . when the door of happiness
closes, another opens; but, often
times, we look so long at the closed
door that we don't even see the new
one which has been opened for us.


Maybe
. .. . it is true that we don't
know what we have until we lose it,
but it is also true that we don't know
what we have been missing until it
arrives.


Maybe
. . . the happiest of people
don't necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.


Maybe
. . . the brightest future will
always be based on a forgotten past;
after all, you can't go on
successfully in life until you let go
of your past mistakes, failures and
heartaches.


Maybe
. . . you should dream what you
want to dream; go where you want to
go, be what you want to be, because
you have only one life and one chance
to do all the things you dream of, and
want to do.


Maybe
. . . there are moments in life
when you miss someone -- a parent, a
spouse, a friend, a child -- so much
that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real, so
that once they are around you
appreciate them more.


Maybe
. . . the best kind of friend is
the kind you can sit on a porch and
swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.


Maybe
. .. you should always try to put
yourself in others' shoes. If you feel
that something could hurt you, it
probably will hurt the other person,
too.


Maybe
. . you should do something nice
for someone every single day, even if
it is simply to leave them alone.


Maybe
. giving someone all your love
is never an assurance that they will
love you back. Don't expect love in
return; just wait for it to grow in
their heart; but, if it doesn't, be
content that it grew in yours.


Maybe
. . . happiness waits for all
those who cry, all those who hurt, all
those who have searched, and all those
who have tried, for only they can
appreciate the importance of all the
people who have touched their lives.


Maybe
. . . you shouldn't go for
looks; they can deceive; don't go for
wealth; even that fades away. Go for
someone who makes you smile, because
it takes only a smile to make a dark
day seem bright. Find the one that
makes your heart smile.


Maybe
. . you should hope for enough
happiness to make you sweet, enough
trials to make you strong, enough
sorrow to keep you human, and enough
hope to make you happy


Maybe
. . . you should try to live
your life to the fullest because when
you were born, you were crying and
everyone around you was smiling but
when you die, you can be the one who
is smiling and everyone around you
crying.


Maybe
. . . you could send this message
to those people who mean something to
you, to those who have touched your
life, to those who can and do make you
smile when you really need it, to
those who make you see the brighter
side of things when you are really
down, and to all those whom you want
to know that you appreciate them and
their friendship.
And if you don't, don't worry; nothing
bad will happen to you. You will just
miss out on the opportunity to perhaps
brighten someone's day.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

奉献


长路奉献给远方

玫瑰奉献给爱情


我拿什么奉献给你


我的爱人


白云奉献给草场
江河奉献给海洋
我拿什么奉献
给你
我的朋友


我拿什么奉献
给你
我不停的问
我不停的找
不停的想


白鸽奉献给蓝天

星光奉献给长夜

我拿什么奉献给你

我的小孩


雨季奉献给大地

岁月奉献给季节

我拿什么奉献给你

我的爹娘


我拿什么奉献给你

我不停的问
我不停的找
不停的想


长路奉献
给远方
玫瑰奉献给爱情

我拿什么奉献给你

我的爱人

白云奉献给草场

江河奉献给海洋

我拿什么奉献给你

我的朋友

白鸽奉献给蓝天
星光奉献给长夜
我拿什么奉献
给你
我的小孩


雨季奉献给大地

岁月奉献给季节

我拿什么奉献给你

我的爹娘


长路奉献给远方

玫瑰奉献
给爱情
我拿什么奉献给你

我的爱人


白云奉献给草场

江河奉献给海洋

我拿什么奉献给你

我的朋友


每一样的生态都有各自的奉献

而渺茫的我能奉献什么呢?


能奉献的对象又是谁呢?


我很疑惑
疑惑我为了什么而活呢

活着又是为了什么呢?


到底是为什么
我会有种绝望的心态

世界不会因为我的不存在而停止旋转


也不会因为我的存在而旋转


此时此刻的我真的感到很绝望....

Sunday, May 10, 2009

对不起

游览了你的部落

才知道自己造成了她这么大的困惑

我恨自己

做么我要说出口

做么要让人知道

如果我埋在心里

一个人知道不是好吗

是我的忽略

搞到你寂寞的一个人

是我的不细心

使你活在内疚的世界

是我的缘故

使到你的生活很不开心

就是我一个人

我凭什么资格去喜欢你

19/4/2007的这一天

是我最开心的第一天

因为第一次和你去金河逛街

可是我觉得很丢你的面

那天那堆人说的那句话犹如刺在我的心中

到现在我都没忘记过

很感谢你愿意邀请我陪你去金河

你是唯一一个不介意我的人

可是我却很愧疚

造成你的不方便

22/3/2008的这一天

是我们spm成绩出炉的时间

那天拿了过后你赶着回家

然而却留下一面错愕的我

直到现在我都是从朋友口中和网络知道你的动向

知道你很不快乐

可是却没勇气去致电慰问你

可能现在说这些实在是太迟了

听着蔡依林的(一个人)

才发现原来我真的是一个人生活

一个人的快乐

一个人的悲伤

一个人的精彩

Saturday, May 9, 2009

伪装

其实我很虚伪

其实我很胆小

做什么都怕

可是在别人面前却要装成熟

要做到什么都会

其实我很幸苦

其实我不快乐

可不可以就让我一个人

躲在黑暗的角落

度过一个安静的周末

Sunday, May 3, 2009

偶尔

今天休假一天

决定打扫房间

无意中找回了我之前不见了的小学和中学的校刊

心里即兴奋和高兴

因为我遗失了的回忆终于找回了

收拾房间让我感觉到舒服多了

因为真的很久没有收拾了

丢了两大包垃圾(我很像垃圾虫哦~)

过后躺在床上看回我的校刊

发觉真的有很大差别

以前的我很可爱(这是真的!!)

可是现在的我却不可爱了(不是很愿意承认.....)

看着同学们的样子

很久没看到他们了

不知道他们现在变成什么样子呢?

Xian Feng→昨天有在msn里面chatting....还在study(有$_$途)

Lee Mei→没有什么联络,偶尔在msn和friendster看到她的动向(还是好朋友)

Linda Hue→时常没看到她上线,有交代说appear offline,不想kacau她...有主意到最近变美了(继续加油,世界小姐冠军等着你....o(≧v≦)o~~好棒)

Gordon→在segi kolej study...没什么聊天...不过共同玩同一个网页游戏《热血三国》

Jia En→在friendster看到她生活很充实...漂亮了很多...跟我在学校认识的佳恩不一样了

Yit Ying→偶尔有sms...现在好像当幼稚园老师(以前真的看不出来)

Yuen Hong→偶尔会sms来问我马来文单词(我是博士(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……)

Jun Hui→还在修读摄影科目....暂时没什么联络(感觉很冷淡)

哈哈

真的很孤单啊

想谈心事的时候不知道要找谁

每个人都有各自忙的

希望他们不会忘记曾经有个熊猫身材的朋友啊~

Friday, May 1, 2009

很久没写部落了

只因为近来有点忙不透

不知道为什么

突然感觉上有点不适应这个社会

老板教的和老板妈妈教的都有很大的分歧

虽然说老板教的是对的

可是当要应用的时候却被老板的妈妈说成不对

怎么办

到底要听谁的

老板出粮的
老板妈妈看头看尾

真的很烦啦

昨天放工的时候被老板严厉的训话了

说因为没有努力销售物品等等的。。。

真的很烦啊

明天开始我就要用自己的方法了

不管行不行通

总之就是做了先

想来想去都是觉得很烦

今天度过了最不开心的劳动节